The Ever Hungry Void

I’ll creep away and hide
no one will miss me right now
there’s no mouths to feed
no arguments to settle
no complaints to hear out
no pandering that needs doing

the Void has moved on
to a fuller space
one that is not worn thin
or stripped bare of sympathy
and the only prayer I can muster
is that the Void will choose to stay
in that space away from me



I am selfish
I know

but for once
I want to be seen
as broken as I am
I want to be seen
as the one who needs
who hurts
who weeps

her pain looks greater
her failed choices
brought her here
to this place of sympathy

but just once I would like
for my sacrifice
and pain
to be discovered
and not held so silently

I am selfish
I know

but just once
I’d like my life
to be about me

Doubting Thomas

I used to have faith,
I used to believe
that You could do anything.
But more importantly
I believed that You would.

Too many heartaches
and I am struggling
to accept You at your Word.

How can this be Your best for me?

Did I somehow veer off
missing the boat
and Your plan along the way?

Obedience is in place
but the heart of the matter
is drowning in doubt.
I’ll love You
but trusting is another thing.


every side an angle
every angle an agenda
every agenda a lie
every lie an opportunity

let’s just leave this unsaid
let’s agree to disagree
let’s not get into this
let’s let lying dogs be

I’m tired of fighting the world
for the the right to my opinion
I’m tired of having to stand
while everyone else is retreating